Mistakes

How do you know for sure that you have made a mistake in life? If only life was a Choose Your Own Adventure book, and you could skip ahead to see what the consequence of your actions will be.
Life is based on timing it seems. And why do we try so hard to get ahead in life. What is the purpose? To gain respect in a society that we have no choice but to exist in?
Mistakes can be made in terms of love and in terms of career. Well those are the two problems I am dealing with now.
I guess I am saying that I wish I could go back, and see how things would have turned out. And then made my decision based on that. But life is about speculation. And maybe my crystal ball was a little cloudy that June night. Or maybe my heart was telling me to walk away, and everything was out of my control. Maybe it was his choice, and I just fell victim to it.
Did the end come down to a silly argument? I don't like to think of it that way, but sometimes I can't help but wonder.

Dinner Among Friends

I just arrived home from a wonderful dinner with Bryce, Adam, and Laurie. We laughed so much when talking of old times. And we did a surprisingly good job at filling each other in on our new lives. We all lead very separate lives now, even though Laurie and Adam and I are still in the STL metro area.
It was just nice to be among such close friends, and to still share a close bond, even though we may not all talk everyday.
I was afraid since Amar and I are no longer together, that there would be awkwardness among us. But there was none of that. We all understand the situation, and there was no need to talk about it. But he was present in spirit. When I look back on college he will always be there, forever. That is one promise I can make. And I will always remember our times with a smile.
I was given the advice this weekend to look forward to something everyday, as a way to stay happy. And dinner the with the Beaumont crew was definitely the event I was looking for.
In case you were wondering we dined at Mangia Italiano. I highly recommend it.